Well, I am suffocating, and feel like crying,
But the tears are playing hide and seek in my eyes, and refuse to let go
I feel ugly, and depressed, I feel lonely and compressed
The walls of my room close on me more and more till my soul disappears
And just when the pain goes away, I feel like dying...
I lost track of time, and space, and can't think or move...
My life freezes in a moment, and refuses to continue the road...
As if my heart plays the drums, speeding heart beats and rage...
Inner power so compressed that if unleashed it could harm
Burns and scars all over my body, conquering pain by pain
My bed becomes so uncomfortable that I sleep on the floor
And when I finally feel peace, the demons in my head awake
And hunt me down to destroy what's left of me
No one can save me from my loneliness but you
When I try to scream and shout, silence echoes in my ears
Reflecting all of my fears, reflecting my past
My present is this moment, but this moment is the past
My future becomes this moment, my story will never last
I never accomplished anything, I will never be remembered
I will die alone... I will die alone...
(Tuesday, March 7,2006,2: 40 am)
Elie Abou Chaaya
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/darkness-of-my-soul/
